My mind's been occupied by things that are undoubtedly bothersome. Well it's not really annoying. It's just sooo confusing. It keeps hunting me down. Maybe for some people, this is just a waste of time. But for me, it is something.
Well it's about this guy/girl.. watchamacallit.
First Sem. Yes, I could still remember how I saw him walk in front of me while we are in the 2nd floor of Arts Building. I was physically attracted to him that time. Whenever it's break time, I ask my friends to come with me so I can see him. Whenever I see him, I follow him. I'm like a fool. Yeeaa. I know. The most memorable day is the day when I followed him until the Boys Comfort Room. (Well, of course I did not go inside.) Everyday has the same routine.
Not until my friends told me they found out he's gay. I protested of course. I insisted. So my friends went like "okay, soothe yourself." Then he became a dead star. I may giggle whenever I see him ocassionally but things are no longer the same. After the semester, I told myself, maybe I won't be able to see him next semester.
Second Semester. What the hell! I saw him again! He's the first student I saw way back then. Could this be destiny? LOL. Things are no longer the same. I see him walking along the hallway of the 2nd floor of Arts Bulidng during our Speech class. My friends used to tell me he's coming and I used to giggle and I follow him. Well, yea. I still do that. But those giggles are no longer the giggles I used to purge before.
Okay. Here comes the last week of the 2nd semester. I don't know why but he's name popped into my mind while I am reviewing for our final exams. I have been planning to search him on facebook since first sem. Now it's about time. Then I reluctantly added him as a friend. I told myself, whatever happens, whether he confirm me or not, it will be fine with me. He does not know me so I let things be.
The next day, the first notification I saw is "*insert name here* accepted your friend request. OMG. So happy. So I checked him out. Things turned out differently. It seems like I want to get to know him better. I found out lots of things about him. There are lots of negative things about him. But I don't give a damn. I want to get to know him better. Even if he's a bisexual. Even if he's unusual. Even if I have a boyfriend. :|
I'm so confused. I am always attracted to guys who turns out to be gays. I do not know why. But I'm growing fonder and fonder of him. Unlike before. And worse, I'm looking forward to meeting him next semester.
*sighs*
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